Mental Spiral

What if there was a Double helix in the mind? Now, I don't mean a physical or visible one, but a mental one, a thought form that emulated a double helix. What would that implicate?

First, The helix must be dissected. What would the individual chains be? Well, I'm going with what i always use, a thought form. Each chain would be it's own independent thought, but why would the two formulate a double helix? If the normal action of a thought form is either to destroy, combine with, or ignore, what causes a double helix? Something of equal force must be both pulling and pushing these two thought forms together. For this to happen, it requires an undecidable question. one where it is impossible with the information at hand to decide on an answer. In the quest for truth, both are correct, and neither are correct. From an external point of view, these two thought forms have become unified into a singular object with no external meaning aside from mere existance.

--bzzt-- (months later-- to present time)

Re-reading over all of my posts ive noticed that i may have noticed a neat trend over the last year or 2. Two strong and strange ideas have penetrated my mind and gripped me, and have tangled and grappled neither has succeeded in dominating me. The above post was half finished and un-posted a number of months ago, and I think it speaks more about myself than anything. These ideas are grappling me and pulling me in a strange direction that is probably nearest insanity.

I am trying to fashion myself as a mediator of the impossible. I am half way between maniacal rationality, and whimsical irrationallity. I am trying to find chaos in order, order in chaos, magic in science, science in magic. I wonder if I am the mental spiral, the host of these two opposing ideas grappling with eachother as they fall down a cliff or rise into the sky. Directionality is lost to me. Will i stumble on what I am looking for?